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Friday, November 14, 2014 || 7:10 AM
Sometimes, things just feel a little overwhelming, not so much of a physical manifestation but rather the mental drain from feeling too much. Treading a thin line, feeling as if once the inertia has ceased, it will be an empty, devastating fall into a whirlpool of the unknown. Whether the whirlpool is the stairway to a better place seems so debatable, a roll of a dice dictate the side of line where the story ends. It hurts knowing that maybe the truth has always been right there. But acceptance has never been easy. With every passing day it gets more concrete, as if it has always been set in stone. And yet, circumstances seems to erode the stone as well. Swaying resolves, wandering thoughts that can't settle. Picking up pieces left behinds but what about it. Why bother picking them up when all that remains are incoherent, incomprehensible pieces, shattered, disillusioned visions and darken thoughts. Little by little, eating away the feelings you have, diminishing the capacity to feel, to become so numb in order to not hurt. Numbness, the only hope of rest, from the turmoil within, solace and rest. Numbness for acceptance, true acceptance, to detach away from expectations and explanations, from false pretenses, from the paradoxical way that things has turned out. Most of all. To be numb enough to not fall into that whirlpool beneath.