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Thursday, April 17, 2014 || 8:39 AM
“It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn’t come back. You’re left so alone that you can’t explain. Damn, there’s nothing like that, is there? I’ve been there and you have too. You’re nodding your head.” — Henry Rollins
|| 2:58 AM
It's been a hell of a crazy week, and it feels like I am a complete wreck.
I feel like I need some closure. But I am grateful for the people who spent time with me and making sure that I was alright. So so grateful.
Can't sleep
Thursday, April 10, 2014 || 10:31 AM
Haven't eaten anything today, and now I can't seem to sleep again.
I hurt. I keep wondering what is it that I have done. I can't seem to grab a hold on myself.
To know that this is ending is hard.
I try to be normal, pretending that everything will turn out fine.
But who am I kidding. You know yourself how it always ends. You've seen it since you were a kid.
And I am scared. Terrified.
And there's nothing I can do about it.
Wednesday, April 9, 2014 || 11:17 PM
I wish i am a better person
It always seem like I just keep making the people around me sad, angry, annoyed.
I don't know what to do though. I can't seem do to anything right. Ever.
Sigh