Sometimes, we need to look away from things. Especially those petty little ones.

Just because something unjust happened to you doesn't mean that your world ends there. You need to learn to move on. Just by clinging on to it and whining and being frustrated about it is not going to help; at the end of it, you feel more miserable, so why not look away and stop whining about it.

And because the people around you are getting annoyed. They have their fair share of problem. Is not that we do not care and we do not sympathize with you. But don't you think that you have been holding on to that thing for so long, that it has been a year already, and keep harping on it, it gets on the nerves, esp on our bad days. Granted, you are miserable, unhappy etc, but must you vent them on others, shout them at others, and make the place so miserable, cool and .... empty.

You have been harping on it way too long... too long... and sadly ... I think that it is such a petty thing in the first place. Granted it may mean alot to you, but I think is time you look away. Do... because every minute till you do, you are making people around you hurt... sad, and angry with you, and most importantly, yourself. If you are never ever going to let it go, you are going to spent the rest of your life, wallowing in self pity, wallowing in your own misery when you could have been happy.


and... you are going to lose me one day if all you are going to do is to shout at me, nag at me, complain to me. Because... much as I know you care about me, I don't feel it. Is not about knowing it, sometimes, you need to feel it. And you are never ever there for me when I am sad, when I wanted someone to talk to. Were you there? Maybe, but more then ever, mostly no. How much do you know about me? My stuffs, what I do, what I feel? You don't. You don't ask, I don't say, you DON't know. That is pretty much where this is going. Is this what you wanted??? All this years, this is how this is going to end???


Honestly, the more I think about it, the more wretched I feel. The pain, because I feel hurt. Who do you think I am? Your scapegoat, your punching bag? You think that I am some robot with no feelings? Or someone who you think you can use, to prove something? You think that you are never wrong and all you do is right. You think that the only person in the wrong is him, her, everyone else. You claim that everything is going against you. I claim that you are unreasonable. There I said it. Unreasonable yes. Because you do what you accuse people of doing. And you are doing it to me so often. And by the way, you changed the respect I once had for you. I used to place you on this high pedestal.

I am very close to the edge... I am walking on this line and it is a very thin one. I don't think I can bottle anymore of this. If I spontaneously combust one day, I don't think you have anyone to blame but yourself. Because... I am human...